After 2 years of fighting my mental illness alone, having no financial support, a broken dream, a hollow heart that only screams for love, i lost a dear friend of mine because i don’t know how to convey my thoughts nor my feelings, scared to be “too much” for them to handle which happened before.I find my self unable to shed a tear due to the strong coping mechanisme i grew to forge “apathy” i cried for the fist time in a while today, yet without a tear.