Theres a girl in my first period class who sits next to me I’m not really attracted to. We have different ideologies, she doesnt find me particularly attractive, and I dont really think of her that way either, although she is very pretty. We eat lunch with the same group of friends and we are, ourselves, friends. But literally every time we speak I feel a tension, as if something meant to be voiced is not being voiced. For example, we went to a party, and there was this guy like touching her leg all night and getting super close. I didn’t like him, and I felt jealous. I still do. But I’m not really attracted to her, so maybe it’s just my ego? I dont know. The point is I feel kind of dumb when I cant control these really weird feelings.

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