What the f*** am I doing with my life…. I lived in Indonesia, I’m gay, I am 23 y’o, unemployed (hopefully a job by the end of next month)… I look 32 though… My hairline recedes, im fat (still working on it..) and look old as f***… Bottom line unfuckable, undesirable, useless man living in my parents house (which common in asian countries, we dont just emancipate ourself)….

Yes i am not a killer or r***** or at least im not poor…. But i cant shake the feelings inside talking to me like I’m a s***** human being….

Im living a lie… A huge lie… I’m soo done with myself