Every time I show emotion (besides worry/pity and a few others like those) I feel like I’m on the edge of tears. Even when I’m laughing, when I’m angry, when I’m emotional at all. I guess it’s because I never let myself cry and I usually never let myself be angry or any other “ugly” emotion. Its like there’s this huge dam built up and emotions can put small cracks and leaks in it but it never lasts long. After a few minutes of wanting to cry and almost crying, I end up feeling so emotionally drained.