I had a mad & a wild weekend ……… Not that I never did this before … but this is by far the worst I have ever done … been … or whatever you wanna call it!
We did a birthday surprise party for a very good friend of mine .. and We had a whole lot of drinks to throw in for such a “celebration” ….
All was going well, we girls were having fun … we had guys with us as well … and the birthday girl was thrilled, happy, and excited.
Then the worst came … after so much alcohol … and a guy I have been liking for sometime … the inevitable happened. I had s** with the guy, in the bathroom … and I don’t remember s*** about it!
I found out only the following day, when my back was just killing me, and had bruises all over it!
I hate it when I black out, and actually do such a stupid thing, when I should be more in control of myself. I literally blacked out, and had no idea that such memory is completely lost for the unknown.
How can just erase it is beyond me 🙁
I felt I was raped …
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How do you know you had sex if you blanked out? Couldn’t the bruises/pain be from something else?
T.A.
Well TA … People saw me going in & out of the bathroom with him …. So I know it happened … But don’t remember how, when, and why!
Forgive me for not being an expert on sex (Haha. No, seriously.), but since when does sex involve back pain and bruises? I mean… For that sort of damage to happen, it would have to be pretty loud and rough sex, right? And people would hear that. I’m not saying you didn’t have sex, but what if you just made out or something in the bathroom and you happened to… since you were drunk… hit the wall really hard? Somehow? What?
T.A.
T.A., we feel it … when we just had sex -_-
A.
You get bruised and hurt in the process? Since when?
T.A.
T.A. It’s regardless whether I did or did not … though I am 100% sure about it … It’s the feeling that I still carry with me till this date … and the anger I have against my friends because they didn’t protect me … It’s unexplainable.
Maybe it’s your fault.
T.A.
T.A.!!
That’s not nice, T.A…
Well, I’d say I agree with TA. ” black out and saw you come in and out ”
In addition, how old are you? friends to protect you… seriously… i don’t think you should drink if you can’t protect yourself or even go out unattended 😉 …
First of all you can’t blame your friends for this, neither yourself because you blacked out. You may have had sex with him, but ask him what happened that night just to be sure, maybe you’re wrong, maybe nothing rly happened. Don’t jump to conclusions… And its okay you made a mistake, a big one but you can’t keep thinking about it, u weren’t conscious, next time don’t drink too much. And give urself some time ur gonna get over it eventually 🙂
CR