I am a man and i’m 18. I’m very shy and I have few friends · or 4) I’ve been in love a couple of times some years ago, I’m not a virgin, eventhough I did it once. I’ve kissed 4 different girls. I’m not sure about my s********, I think that I like men too but I don’t dare to tell that to somebody, not even my best friend knows it. I feel lost in every aspect of life. Sometimes I feel very alone. I don’t know why was I born, what did I came her for. I feel that I don’t fit with society, and that I’m set apart from the world because I don’t know how do relationships work, and that avoids me to have new friends. I feel that society and my parents have made me change and have tried to teach me to be a “Normal” person (they failed) and I’m not who I petended to be, that I’m not anymore who I wanted to be. I have been suffering for several years studying because I cant find time for myself. I have been several years living a routine life, an unhappy life and that’s why I have been planning to commit suicide for some years. Nobody knows, but I don’t know how happiness feels like, hope and faith are starting to die next to my will to live.
