u know i always had people befriending me for purposes either for my dad or to get use from me coz of my music .damn ..this reallytook out the trust u know now i think more than ten times when i trust someone ,but i thought i could trust another frnd atkeast aftr joining undergrad,and she also breaks ..i understand i cannot always come to ur sleepovers or outside some other stuffs coz my parents are real damn strict..but dont i deserve friend or wat ! and then u come popping out of nowhere.i dint even notice u at first:) i still hate u for how u behaved.but i guess u are wat i actually reqd then for me to be happy and a bit of open up to ppl coz u wer so stupidly idioticly shy..i still remember in bus stop i was the one who had to talk to u .. u wer my idiot and will always be my idiot..
coz of previous trustbreaks ,i had this walls u know ,i just got tired of getting hurt..here also stupid ppl,..just wen i used to think ppl wer talkingto me for me,once i actually got talking to this person and i ends up i was actually being talked to so that they can get close to the crush..damn assholes!!! one of my first friends…and wen he couldnt get much from me abt that info,dumped my friendship and went off…its ok i wasnt too attached also to his sorry a**!!then u somehow start msgn me for this stupid assignments..u know though i hated the assignments ,one thing i am ever thankful for that is ,it got me talking to u !!hehe!!damn 1/2 year of crush and 1 and 1/2 year of liking you..u and ur stupid talks..always made me smile on a s***** day too..i just dint realise wen did i even get so damn attached to u..this lastyear was so painful being in same collg and not seeing u.. i knew ki i dint like someof ur habits ,manners..but i really couldnt help but just brush itoff..u wer there for me wen i needed u sometimes without u realising it and u just made a way to my heart..and last sem was so damn irritating..it was so difficult controlling myself..i know i cant fall in this realtionship thingy and all..in home these are strict no no..and even i feel so..u made me like this ,to feel stuffs i dint know i could..this sem wenever u used to flirt it used to make my heart soar and also feel so sad fo rmyself..then u stupidly end up proposing.!!i knew i couldnt tell ki even i fuc***g like u a lot!it went down the hill..but atleast u could have been considerate of my feelings..huh!! we had been close friends for 2 years for god’s sake.. and all u have to tell is ur friend askd u abt it and u did..bl***y a******..and u have the audacity to call it as a joke..having one sided feelings was hell lotta bettr..atleast i could push it down bit by bit..and u end up telling me that and ignoring later..idiot..and i see that within a week u are in a committed relationship with whom i think is ur ex..then what was the need to tell me that huh..did u want a rebound relationship wid me huh u a**!! or u just wanted to play around and joke about it..u monkey!
hell i was so happy wen i got u sweets homemade from my mom too…that was the last good thing that happened btwn us i guess!!
i am sorry ki i cut off my friendship ..but somewhere in the corner of my heart i am not sorry..u know why..it is helping me move on from ur conceited ,egoistical ,sorry a**!but still wen i see ur pic or post ..i get that warm feelings..but i somehow hope i move on from u..u wer a jerk to me even before ,,u wer equally good to me…last last i felt i was the one holding the thread of friendship u know..u tell ull call and u dont..and ur reply is its ur loss..wat could id o hemanth i had to make up a lie..to save an ounce of my pride..and i get this harsh reply..u dont even realise i guess how affecting ur words were ,are..but i dont wanna make it “will be”..u wer the best thing that happened to me in collg here and also the worst thingat the same time..this relationship is unhealthy for me..i started realising.. i cant keep crying over u and u get to act all high and mighty wen all i did was be there for u ,tried to keep our friendship and be nice..so f**k off !!i just dont wanna meet u in person for somemore time atleast..hopefully all goes well..if destiny awaits we may meet in future..hopefuly u be a changed man(ps:not a damn idiot teen)..