I’m a 19 years old female
I used to be homeschooled since many years but I was able to develop my social skills very fast when I started college. Most of people from my year and higher years at least knows my name, I have many friends but more of mates than friends but I also have reals friends. My problem is I’m in continuous search for the ideal friends, the thing is I feel like I have grown up too far from people that I’ve developed my very own way of thinking and acting that no one understands or misunderstands it. I don’t say that I don’t have good friends, indeed I’ve many special friends each in a special in their way and what may be commen is that they at least understand that I have my own way of living and thinking or they may understand some details of this and I desperately believe that I have such good friends who are understanding and loving. But even though I still feel that there is something missing. Its not that I don’t love them , actually I love them so much but I feel like that they are not my type of people, I’m also not looking for people similar to me at all and I understant and I’m statisfied with the fact that people are meant to be unique and different, I’m not sure how the friends I’m looking for look like, even the people I had intrest at the beginning turned to be a dissatisfaction or just friends who didn’t fill the empty space that I’m talking about which makes me draw a bigger and more unrealistic picture if a soulmate who will be the savior and I hate this idea as I’m talking about humans not machines that I will design and at a point I will reach a limit that most of this picture will be unrealistic
My words may seem vague but that is one of the reasons why I seek advice or help