i dont know what to do
Im 16. I have no direction in life, no long term goals or ambitions or carreer aspirations and no commitment to hobbies. I don’t care about exams, school assessments and responsiblites.
Im not emotionless, im actually really sensitive. The more I think about this, the more sad i feel.

I have a cousin whos 25. Hes tall like me, but with grossly overweight with long greasy hair that he hides his acne covered face with. He did comp sci in uni, but dropped out and now aspires to be a self employed and be successful- like Elon Musk in his words.
My parents keep comparing me to him. I dont want to see the similarites. Im scared

I have loving parents and a few friends at school.
My mum has no expectations for me. She doesnt care how I do in school, not if i pass or fail. She knows im dumb. But i still love her
Shes actually the reason why im writing this. Today, my mum found out that i havent been doing any of the homework assigned by my tutor, and broke down. Stopped eating and cried. Shes been telling me to do it for weeks by now. I didnt do any- no excuses. I feel guilty, really guilty. And i have nothing to say.

I want to say more, maybe about my inferiority complex, or how i start crying uncontrollably when anyone raises their voices at me. But i doubt anyone would bother to read that, and i also have really important exam tomorrow.

I hope this feeling would subside. Im already feeling better typing this out. When i graduate highschool, finish university and become an adult, i want to be happy and my mum finally starts thinking im smart, maybe an interesting life too.
If not, i will kill myself and hope for a life with real purpose.