I don’t know. I don’t know if I love or hate my own mother. Why does our relationship have to be ambivalent. Yes- she took care of me, gave birth to me but those were basic bare minimum responsibilities of having a child. I do appreciate the love and support but it does not invalidate the pain you cause everytime you compare me to someone else’s child when in fact you did not even give me the same circumstance to have the chance to grow up the same as them.