The truth is that I miss my sister. She’s a massive narcissist, who I haven’t seen in going on a decade. I cry watching Lilo and Stitch because I never had that with her (I’m neurodivergent, so it’s hard for me to open up and I always yearned to have a close sibling) and I have dreams frequently. I’ll yell at her or cry or ask her why she’s always hated me so much. How can you hate a sibling 9 years younger than you so incredibly much? Does she understand that it hurts? Does she understand that she was never here, always cold, and caused me severe separation anxiety? Why does she hate me?
How can you bully a 7 year old? How can you give a 4 year old a black eye? I don’t understand any of it, all I know is that I hurt and I miss parts of who she was. She has had two children now, that I know nothing of, that will also be strangers in the future. I wish my sister weren’t a stranger.