Denial is dangerous and deadly

3 years

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I lied for years about my skills and basically dumbed myself down so I could hide. I’d be haunted by the thought that the eyes of those I know would really see ME, and I’d be unable to express myself in a way that I can’t to people IRL.

While I feel horrible for lying, a world that only I know is a comfort that I cannot find this world.

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I regularly think about hurting myself. I used to sh years ago but I’m 2 years clean now. But when it gets late at night or when I’m alone, I think of bashing my head into the floor, or taking as many pills as I can. I might think of dying sometimes but most of the time I think of the pain that might come with these things. Like how I might internally bleed or choke on my own vomit. I don’t feel normal. Not when I have these thoughts almost nightly.