I hope one day I get everything together & stop having these suicidal thoughts.
I just kissed a girl for the first time(im a girl) and she was super hot we undressed eachother when I got to her bra a new skill was unlocked I started running round my t*** /b**** bouncing also my b*** she was loving it ahhh i wish i could g back but my 18 year old thoughts kicked in later in the day as I rode her brothers c*** and it injected into me also the best s*** of my life maybe next time we will o it all together the bothers big c*** dn me and his siters b******* and b****….
I regularly think about hurting myself. I used to sh years ago but I’m 2 years clean now. But when it gets late at night or when I’m alone, I think of bashing my head into the floor, or taking as many pills as I can. I might think of dying sometimes but most of the time I think of the pain that might come with these things. Like how I might internally bleed or choke on my own vomit. I don’t feel normal. Not when I have these thoughts almost nightly.
