so lonely. acquaintances but no partner or friends. I feel as if I cannot related to 97% of the people I meet, work with. Am 57 female alone except for

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so lonely. acquaintances but no partner or friends. I feel as if I cannot related to 97% of the people I meet, work with. Am 57 female alone except for family. I have needs and do not know how or where I can get them met.Is it my age ? Should I join a church or club ? I have and no not there either. Online social media ? I am tired of it all. I used to be so energetic, excited about everyday. Depression, anxiety been treated in the past which helps but not for the loneliness. If I were prettier, younger maybe it would be better. But I am not interested in plastic surgery or getting my teeth fixed. I do not ask of that of a partner, My previous relationships lasted for as long as they were meant to. I don’t miss any of them. But I really do want a life partner. Seems not possible. I don’t drink, smoke weed or watch sports. I am not into computers, hiking, swimming or skiing, golf; modern tv shows, social media … no motorcycles or horses, networking. I like to walk, like old movies, classic literature, the arts … history, world religions.. being genuine, honest and direct. I don’t wear wigs or fake nails and have no tattoos. Why is everyone out there the same ? Tattoos, alcohol and weed… American football, Christian religion, the Republican/Democrat animosity, guns, watching violent tv shows, putting hot sauce or everything …. listening to Rolling Stones, the Grateful Dead, Pink friggin Floyd, modern country music, hip/hop … what about classical music, world music ? I live in a place where most people are ignorant to world events, history and culture. I want to move back to where I came from where there is culture and educated (formal & non-formal) students of life. But it is so expensive there and many big cities. Everyone is so shallow and petty now. What is it ? I hope to continue my quest. Just needed to write this out somewhere.

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