Im a guy, 30 yrs old and wierdly in love with my best friend of 15 years. She saved my a** back when I was finishing high school and only after that did we really start getting to know each other….
she is now a mother and im the Godfather of her child. I get along well with her man but when they opened the relationship it really hurt me to see her meet with other guys instead of me…
she saved me from the bottomless pitt of depression. i was drinking heavy and taking “medication”
i really hate life and its a secret that i can never really tell, even typing here seems pointless…

Now i feel like i jeopardized the friendship and if i do lose her, i would literally lose my reason to live. life is just too hard…