I don’t know how to deal with being so in love. I don’t want to be. It scares me.

All the distance I try to keep has been unraveled. Yes, it’s beautiful but it’s insane and wrong.

And I let things happen. I let things happen that I should have stopped. Things I swore would never happen.

I feel so small and frail and vulnerable.

I don’t like to let anyone in. Not in a real way.

He’s been let in..in so many ways.

I’m petrified.