I think the truth is, transgenders, as far as being s***** or maybe being in a relationship with them, is basically a young persons thing. Like if you were born before 2001 or so, chances are, you aren’t like a computer person enough, to be able to handle being with a transgender. The way we grew up back in the day, we can’t change what we went through in our childhoods. Things were the way they were, and our bodies developed accordingly, but then came the internet and super internet… Like you all young people, got rid of gender norms and things like this.
More than likely, these things are deep seated inside of me, to the point where you literally cannot get rid of it. So transgenders will always cause someone like me issues, because I don’t have the way of seeing things that a young person does.
I mean really this is majority my fault, I should be more appropriate for my age. I am in my mid 30s, so, while I haven’t, I should be working full-time, living on my own, going out with other older people my age maybe, s*** like that.
As much as I wish I could be young, and be a part of this crazy world that we live in now today, and the opportunities you guys have, and how you’ve had the internet your entire lives and your perspective isn’t tainted by anything really, you guys just kind of make up your own choices and decisions for everything.
I wish, I could do it. I really honestly wish I f****** could.
But, I am just a regular boy I think. There is nothing I can really do about it. It’s like once something is finished baking in the oven, it’s like, it’s over, it’s set, there isn’t anything you can do anymore.
As much as I would want things to be different, I think I am just kind of stuck being what I am, which is just a socially isolated weird mid 30s person.
I wish I didn’t have all this gender norm stuff, and all the other ‘norms’ that I grew up with that fucked with my head. I was always kind of effeminate and sort of interested in experimenting but nothing really came of it, because
