you hurt me
you made me cry
you made me question everything you ever said to me
you made me question my trust for you
you made me question my comfort
you made me question whether you were worth it
you put me through absolute hell
but i still like you
all my friends are silently judging me but i can’t help it
i
still
like
you
as much as i wish that i didn’t, i don’t want to ever stop liking you
i want to like you, i want to talk to you, i want to flirt with you
i want the stupid, silly, pathetic, laughable, teenage relationship that we will look back on and cringe at
i want a relationship that i can tell my kids about when we have gone on to different lives
i want my first love
the one talked about in books
and i think i want it with you
but you hurt me
after saying you never would, you hurt me
but i am not the kind of person to hurt you back
as much as i want to and as much as you deserve it, i am not that person
i do not want to hurt you, ever
i want you to text me
i want you to flirt with me
i want you to be around me
i want you to talk to me
i want to talk back
i want to be around you
i want to go places with you
i want to be comfortable around you
i want to trust you
i want.
but you can’t give.
