my mother shamed me for m***********, constantly… didn’t even explain why she thought it was wrong, but I guess it was tied to religion and restriction in that sense, especially being a woman and ladies aren’t supposed to be dirty. We should be “pure” right? HA! Like we aren’t people? Like women aren’t people????
Self denial destroyed her in the end. She struggled with helping herself because she would DENY herself of true happiness. I don’t want to be that way. I never want to stifle myself from truly living. If truly living means going against society in some way, some social norms, then I don’t care. F*** what society dictates.

But at the end of the day, this particular confession was to say that that’s the reason I can’t have an o***** with another person unless I feel somehow (mentally fantasizing) that they are somewhat forcing me or there’s some serious taboo thing going on. Like me, a young woman, f****** a man twice her age.