I know I’m conventionally attractive in some ways and I shouldn’t complain but I do get tired of men looking me up and down for way too long and making suggestive comments. Sometimes getting upset when I don’t react or entertain them. Not to mention I was s******* abused by an older male family member repeatedly for basically my entire puberty and I have to pretend that none of that happened and “move on” because he feels like nobody cares about him and the efforts he puts in and its gotten to that point that I’m second guessing my own memory even though this literally went on for years. I confronted him and he literally refused to acknowledge it and guilt me. I am totally financially reliant on him and because of my own learning disability I don’t see myself easily being able to leave even though this confrontation has somehow convinced him to stop entirely these last few years and actually act like the person he should’ve acted like when I was growing up.