ive been w my bf over a year now and before dating i knew he was into this other girl but when we started dating he said he doesnt have feelings for her

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ive been w my bf over a year now and before dating i knew he was into this other girl but when we started dating he said he doesnt have feelings for her anymore, ofc i was happy but idk, i hate to see them as friends cuz i knew he used to like her, im a very bad overthinker and an anxious attached person. what if he still likes her, shes for sure skinnier and prettier imo, shes also around her 30s and i younger than my bf, he did say he likes older women, he also said his fav eye colors are green and later found out her eyes were green as well. i hate to stay quiet and talked about this w him and he said hes not into her anymore and he doesnt care about the eyecolors, i care about the very little stuff, i wished he said he likes my hazel eyes more but all of a sudden he said he doesnt care anymore, i feel upset and im really sorry for him that ue couldnt get the girl he wanted first, idk what i am to him rn, i feel like an option while his main goal was her.

im almost 22 and im jealous of a 30yo woman whos also a mother, i hate her bcuz of this and i know its bad and i really dont want to hate her, i recently unfollowed her cuz i kept looking at her pics thinking i aint the one and it ate me alive, later i found out she blocked me which idrc anymore but it made me anxious, anyway

im really not confident and i hate myself, he knows all about this cuz im also straightforward and dont like to hide my feelings, i did lie to him that idc anymore but sometimes i keep repeating stuff in my head like “ur just an option, he couldnt get the girl he really wanted” or whatever it hurts and i cry, i hate overthinking about every small thing.
i dont want to live like this, i dont wanna live at all. i really do love him a lot but he really deserves someone better looking, skinnier, shorter & prettier person (im tall n curvy, bit taller than him) every small thing matters to me, i cant be the girl he wanted and i hate it, i just want to make him feel proud of me but im useless.

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I want to have s** with underage girls, the younger the better, my erect manhood would enter the girls C***, I would begin to take them very f****** hard with my p****, I want them to scream for their mother’s then I will put my p**** into her mouth and throat f*** the girl, then m********* in the girls face, which would be covered with my f****** come, then I will take the girl from behind, I will get my sister, and the girl will lick out my sister’s C***, so I can f*** my sister next.

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F*** You Sister Marie Howorth
F*** You Judy Wright
F*** You Yvonne Kocik
F*** You Former Deputy Director of the MSSB who thought he had a right to force a grief counselling on me when he could have just made a complaint against me to stop. I would never have contacted him in the first f*****’ place! Besides, unlike his late son, I would never steal VCRs from the Honeydale Walmart!!!