Im not sure if I (18) can put it this way, but my stepfather might have been trying to groom me?
For context, my mother and him (lets call him dan) have been together for about 7 years now and are planning on getting married, theyre even building a house together, with rooms for me and my younger brother.

Since january 2022, dan has always been trying to talk about s***** content with me. Usually its about p**********, but hed mention that he would even buy me sextoys and lingerie if i asked him, or even his insecurity about his dicksize.
Dan recently started to touch my body inappropriately when he gets drunk, i asked him to stop and he didnt do it ever since, but it still makes me sick when i think of it.

He swears every single time that hes concerned i might think hed want to harm me, but that he doesnt. By now i dont know what to believe though.
I know he loves my brother and me like his own children, but im starting to believe he also views me in another type of way.

I cant mention this to my mother as ive already mentioned that i got s******* assaulted by another family member, and she only brushed it under the rug, forcing me to remain silent.
If i tell her my concerns, she will 100% put all blame on me and put me through hell.

After having a physical abuser and alcohol addict as a biological father, i cant help but be in pain with these recent developments.
There is also no way that i would mention this to anyone in my personal life, especially my mother. She blindly loves dan to death, even though shes aware of his toxicity in our household.

He also has huge anger issues, regardless if hes sober or not, so she always keeps putting herself through more pain in life.