I’m not even that fat but I have really low self-esteem. I bought myself a shirt that reveals my belly and I want to wear it when I will get even thinner (I already lost 8 kg).
When I accidently took it out I told my bf “ohh it’s this shirt I want to wear when I will get thinner because if I were to wear it right now I’d feel ugly and fat”. And he just said “oh noo…”. I feel like crying. I don’t feel like I’m attractive to him even thou a lot of people look at me as if I was very attractive. I feel like I’d be better without him in my life sometimes. When I told him “this is the moment where you say something nice about my body or tell me to not say such stuff about myself”. And he’s like “but then it would sound like I’m arguing with you, like y’know you say bad stuff about your body and I’d say something good and it would turn out as if I didn’t agree with you and if I wanted to argue”.. and I’m like… “what?”. Now he’s angry at me and doesn’t talk to me.
