I didn’t have anyone to talk to this about so i just wanted to scribble it out here just to get it out of my mind and hope that no one ever has to feel this way even though i wish i had someone to relate to.
I am 21 y/o currently prepping for an MBA entrance, I gave it last year as well but didn’t exactly get the college I wanted. Even though my parents wanted me to take the college i was getting but i just wasn’t happy with it. As a result, now I’m at home, living with my parents while prepping for the entrance. I feel that my parents are really toxic. I know that they have done a lot for me and hence I feel guilty calling them toxic but thats how it is now.
My mom makes me feel miserable and like a failure. she keeps taunting me about not taking the college i was offered and keeps says that I’ll probably end up getting the same score as last time. She keeps commenting on my appearance and about me slouching, etc.
Just stuff that makes me feel sad and miserable. I hate living like this. TBH, my parents have always been like this. I just want to do an MBA and move away from my parents and live my own life on my own terms. I want to live around people that make me happy and do things that I have always dreamt of. I feel like I have been holding back my emotions and likings for such a long time just waiting to get away from parents and live the life I have always wanted to live. I hope that I am successful enough to be able to make my dreams come true and be happy.
IK it was a big rant,im sorry i didn’t know how to express myself.
To anyone reading this who feels they can relate to this, firt of all, i feel sorry for you and secondly, i wish to tell you that this will pass. Everything will be alright