I generally hate myself, and, I can’t feel it lol.
I don’t have any emotions, I can’t feel love, I don’t really feel pain, I feel empty, I feel useless, I just feel nothing really. Well that in itself is an emotion in some way? But, I can’t help but read, reading makes me feel, just feeling anything while reading books, y***, yuri, whatever the f*** it is, just being able to feel what the authors wrote is amazing, but the fact I read problematic things is just hurting me, and I wish that someday, someone like in those amazing books will make me feel. Feel love.
This is truthfully from O, thanks for reading.
