I don’t feel like I am male, nor female, but somewhere in between. I don’t have anyone to talk to about it IRL since nobody here would understand it. My family is old-fashioned and hated the fact that I even thought I was gay in the past, let alone that I might not be my assigned gender at birth.
Someday, I hope there is a surgery to help me feel like my internal self on the outside. It kills me internally every day to see artwork of characters who have what I want so desperately, but that pain keeps me going for a dream to someday be my authentic self. The gender dysphoria I feel when looking at myself is horrific. I see someone else staring back at me in the mirror, never myself.
I know there will be people who read this and wish everything from my unhappiness to my early death, but that’s unfortunately the price you pay when you live a life against the grain of society. Some people just can’t understand. And that’s ok. It won’t stop me from trying to live my best life.
