You aren’t the only one, trust me, it’s the same for me other anon emotionally stunted/damaged person. I also find it hard to get close to another person, my family abused me too much. People don’t realize just how prevalent s***** parents and family are. It fucks you up.
I feel like I’m not good enough for anyone, I draw people in and have them fall in love with me, but I don’t think I can actually love anyone else. I’m too damaged.
I cheat constantly, need multiple people on a string with me having the lead and all the power in order to feel and for part of the void to feel temporarily filled.
I’m still stuck with part of my toxic a** family. I know I should leave. Obligation and gaslighting makes it awful f****** hard.