ever since I met my ex 2 years ago everything has gotten to bad. cps had to come once I got sent to a physciatrist I developed an eating disorder and depression. I started to self harm and almost overdosed. I never told him but he always made me feel like s***. he cheated 3 times and we were on and off for those 2 years. I used to cry every night because of him. I fear I’m not perfect or my current boyfriend might leave me. I have an urge to cry everyday. I always feel guilty and sad for no reason and cry for no reason too. I’m currently 3 almost 4 days clean. my boyfriend treats me good and he’s so perfect to be honest but sometimes it’s just so hard to believe him because I’m scared he might leave me for someone else like my ex did or he might hurt me.