i’ve always had a love for him. ever since elementary school. i cant remember when it started but it’s always been like a background noise, i see him and i feel butterfly’s in my stomach. i dated him in 7th grade and was completely in love with him. i broke up with him 6 months later and i’ll always regret that although i felt it made me grow as a person. it’s now 9th grade and i still have this background noise of love for him. he’s dated multiple girls and i haven’t dated anyone since him. he has a girlfriend now and i wish he loved me. i still have so much love for him. in a week i’ll be going away with my friend who’s family friends with him and he’ll be there. i wish i could have moments with him there and hug him and kiss him and just spend the weekend with him but he’s in love with someone else and he’ll never love me again and i don’t think i can handle that. i don’t know what i should do.