I just recently turned 21 and for the last 9 months I’ve been trying to get over my ex (F22). She was my first actual love, the person I felt at peace with and someone who just always had my back, we didn’t have a nasty breakup, there’s just some things we couldn’t control. We only dated for a year and some change we had known each other for almost 2. We still talk a little but sometimes I wish I had never met her, only for the simple fact that I can’t get over her, I’ve just turned 21 so I go out to bars and I talk to girls but it just doesn’t feel right, I miss her and it’s been hard, I’m definitely in a better place than I was a couple of months ago, but when I see couples or like just listen to some music, it makes me miss her and what we had, she was my everything.