I tried to kill myself this past week. I feel like maybe it wasn’t a full attempt but I think I kind of overdosed last night so maybe that filled in the gaps. I tried to bleed out and I don’t know how I managed to f*** it up. No one knows what happened. I’m not going back to the hospital. Everything is hurting. I’m so sorry. It keeps turning. I tried to kill myself again and I know no one wants to know.