Man I just realized that I gaslight myself so much. Can’t blame me too much tho, I was s******* assaulted 3 times in the same month recently. One of them who s******* assaulted me sympathized about how his friend also s******* assaulted me. How do I not. They don’t even know what they did was wrong, so apparently I’m not allowed to feel bad about it. The other guy who assaulted me got raped and the other one is super nice. I’m apparently a b**** to everyone, all I did was stop talking to someone who disrespected me in person (I eavesdropped), to others (they told me), and I have ss. My friend is getting manipulative and I’m not allowed to feel any negative emotion around her. Her family has a history of drug abuse and she is talking about wanting to try Molly. She also uses me for my grades and makes me feel like such a bad person and boring only caring about marks person. I’m not. People need to stop thinking that. I don’t want anyone to know but I also just want to burst out and tell everyone. Weird.