im going through a depressive state And my family doesnt even know or care. i cant let them see me this way. im sad cause i miss my mom and other relatives that passed. a bunch of pain and resentment towards my father for leaving us and said mother at a hotel and splitting. i feel all these unseen feelings about things. im worried im becoming my father and my daughter will be scarred the same way i was id never leave her but i do have anger issues and sometimes yell at her all these feelings are becoming too much i dont want too hurt my wife or daughter some times i lose it with em and snap at them im so afraid sad depressed ive spent the whole morning locked away in my office ive never hit them or anything but RN i cant provide for them thats adding too it im becoming fatter as i sit here day after day and am worried ill never work again sorry if none of this makes since or its random its just a bunch of pain i feel as i sit here listining to waking the fallen (album) by A7X