I feel bad for i girl i knew. She was young and had just changed schools and had no friends. She made friends later on , but they drained her mentally. She broke up with that friends and started being friends with other girls. Around that time her parents were fighing. She was tired to the point where she almost committed it. She couldnt tho. She was tired. She tried to cut herself with a scissor that didnt cut. Later on she changed school again. This time by choice. She left all her friends. Well not friends she had problems with all of them and when the year was about to finish she made a new friendship. But when they both (the new friend and her) changed schools a new girl came in. She was really pretty, funny and popular. She didnt find her funny tho. But her new friend loved it. It was then she realised she never had anybody. Problems with dad, mom, brothers and insecurties came into the picture. By now you probably realised this was me. I ended up cutting myself, not a lot. Every once awhile on the same spot. I cant look at my belly or face. Im skinny but i dont have a really small waist. I am constantly depressed and dont remember a lot of that time. There was once a time where I used my newborn cousin as a reason to live. Later on i passed that will to my brother. Then it stoped. I just lived. Like now. But im more suicidal than usual. My life is not even that sad so why am i hurting this much? Am i even hurting? Why should i live? Why did they made me like this. Why. That new friend I made? Well we are super close. At least she says that. Im hiding so much tho. And the popular and funny one? She changed school Last year. I quit. I truly do. Please make me go back in time and save me.