I don’t really have anyone to talk to, I take way too long to get comfortable with people and they get bored of me and I shut down in groups of people. When I’m about to have an anxiety attack i msg everyone i can even gcs i never talk in just for a distration and now I only have 1 person I can message but when I was asking for a distraction because my class was having a party and i was all alone and she then refused to msg me trying to force me to socialise but that backfired bc I just needed a distraction so i didnt burst into tears, so she stopped responding and everything went blury and I slowky fell to the floor struggling to breath but I had to act like nothing was happening because i was still in view. And then the day after i msged for a distraction and after a min she said she was talking a nap. Anyways i dont wanna make my friend feel bad about that bc its not her fault at all. I just wish I didnt have to bother her all the time