I hate my fucking life. Ahhhhhhhhhhh is there any end to this pain. I walked out on my family 5 to 6 months ago. I was doing along of different drugs, the

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I hate my f****** life. Ahhhhhhhhhhh is there any end to this pain. I walked out on my family 5 to 6 months ago. I was doing along of different drugs, the only thing on my mind is coping with this rage I have inside of me. I miss my family to the point where I’m waking up out of dead sleep crying. My baby mama my two daughters are the people I hurt the most. I can care less about the other members. This the point of my insanity… my family wants me to get into a detox then a 30 day rehab, but I have been clean for 2 mouth so no rehab with admitt me. So I’m forced to now use again so I can get help for a problem I know I can get over by myself. My bipolar makes everything worse, I’m holding in all my anger to make the people in my life happy, I want snap and hurt someone…. I got into 4 first fights last month, I won but still I feel so empty. All I can do is wish I can turn back the hands of time and make a better decision. But the pressure is getting to me. So I said I need to use in order to get help.

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