I honestly feel i will just live and die alone, because there is only one woman for me.I have such a huge crush on her, can’t say I’m inlove “with” cause she isn’t with me.We are friends,but that’s all we can ever be. I have told her before that i like her, but she doesn’t feel the same way. I don’t blame her, i just want her to be happy and i know i will never be able to be the one to make her happy, but i can’t help how i feel. I dream about her sometimes where we are just talking and sometimes kissing. When we talk in person my heart is always pounding so hard. I can’t stop thinking about her sigh. Today i just couldn’t help but cry a little bit about how i feel so strongly about her. It’s a great, but horrible feeling at the same time. Even if we were to go out, if we ever broke up I’m sure the stress and depression I’m already dealing with would kill me or break me. She has such a fun personality,can give such a look that just makes my mind go blank, amazing voice and i honestly think she is the most beautiful girl /woman in the world. I know i am just breaking my own heart and putting myself through unneeded pain, but the heart feels what it feels. I truly love her with all my heart and have never ever felt like this about any other woman before, not my first love and any woman i try to talk to,, i just feel nothing for them and then eventually say bye and stop talking to them. So i gave up finding a “replacement”cause there is none and no girl should be used as a replacement anyway.