Every day I wake up with a constant wanting to just paint the walls red, my family thinks I’ve gotten past those thought/s, my friends have no idea besides when they see me drink heavily like really heavy. I drink daily to keep moving on week days and on weekends it’s like I just don’t stop drinking. Before I even eat lunch im piss faced drunk from me drinking more. The only thing I’ve got holding me on this planet is my god son and my friends