During foreplay, my ex made a facial expression that triggered some kind of memory of mine. I really can’t remember why it would bother me, but it did. When he did it, I felt repulsed by him. I’ve read about repressed memories and wonder if that’s what I experienced. I have no memory of being traumatized by someone who made the same facial expression. Idk why this happened, but it’s unnerving me to no end. It’s like the memory is there, but I just can’t see it clearly yet. I’m terrified of remembering that something bad may have happened to me. This same man is 20 years my senior, and we were having an affair. He told me that I had been raped when I was very small. I don’t have any memory of such a thing happening to me. He told me a friend of his had confessed it to him. I am afraid that, maybe, it was really him who may have did something to me, but I can’t remember it yet. Idk what to do. I’d appreciate anyone’s advice. I’m too embarrassed to talk to anyone else about it. Help, if you’ve been there, please.