i feel my life slowly drift away right infront of me while all i can do is stand here watching. everyday i put on this fake smile to get through it. will i ever get past this this is supposed to be my happy time im engaged about to get married but life isnt happy dont get me wrong im so excited to get married and move away but life life life just doesnt make me happy exsistance doesnt make me happy ive been on medication my whole life and havent been taking it for months now i dont want t be numbed for alittle bit then go down again i hate it….i guess i dont really know what to say but what i guess im saying is i dont hate life i hate me and my heart my head my body my soul……