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I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for nearly 7 years now. Two years ago I found out that he was cheating throughout our whole relationship with numerous girls. He was on dating apps etc. After I found out we spoke about it a lot but he would get angry at me for bringing it up. I was not allowed to mention it. We had a lot of s**. We didn’t end up breaking up, we are still together. We hardly have s** anymore, it’s like how it was two years into our relationship, when he was cheating the most. He didn’t have s** with me much, but he had always had a very high s** drive. He gets angry with me if I bring up my feelings, it can be about anything, I don’t mention the cheating ever because it’s been two years. I used to have his social media info but now he moved me out of it. It seems like he’s cheating but I have a feeling he’s not, this is because I am on the phone to him the whole day nearly. He calls me every time he goes out too, I can check when he’s actually at the gym. He doesn’t have any friends anymore so he’s always home and talking to me or playing PlayStation with me. So I know that he is not cheating.

A year after I found out about him cheating, I had decided to make my own profile on a dating app. I started meeting people and having s** with them. I have been doing this ever since. He doesn’t know. He thinks I would never cheat on him. I have a very high s** drive and I am not getting anything from him. We don’t even talk about s**, it feels embarrassing.

I still want to marry him. He claims to want to marry me too but he doesn’t ever talk about it and gets angry when I do.

I am in such a s*** place in my life and I don’t know what I’m doing.

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S** coach/leader of the group of neighborhood married men i kneel for came by yest evenin. Vert angry nut not violently so. He said that the way my ex wife had acted was exactly why he and the other men seek my mouth and do not waste their time cheating with women. He said that no men would visit until he straightened me out and i straightened ex wife out. He told me my ex wife was a taboo topic for the current. That the only way men would return was to do what he expected of me and that the other men agreed to let him handle it as long as they were assurred he had. He insistednwe go to the shed, where i was required to strip and bend over a sawhorse. He closed the shed door as i obeyed making it dark. He set my own phone up with light to spotlight my bate upturned a**, and then took off and laid his belt over the sawhorse next to me. I jumpes out of my skin when he roughly shoved my feet apart then pulled my g******* back behind me and used duct tape around them to hold them protruding. Then i was ordered to put my feel together and he bound my knees tightly trapping my g******* back between my thighs. Bound my wrists in the small of my back. I was terrified but he did not care. Bi was thrashed by his helt on cheeks backs of thighs and g*******. Not without mercy but definitely brutally. I was in tears in momentts and begging for mercy but he just reached around and duct taped over my mouth. I know it was less than 30 minutes but seemed endless. Every time my trapped g******* took a direct hit i was dry heavimg from the gut ache. As he struck he was saying the most vile things….was mot going to risk his life or marriage fir a fsggot cocksucker or my stupid w**** wife. I tried to squirm away but he held me by my hair and kept wailing away with the belt and cursing me and her even though she 2as not there. On and on. I dont know how long i was sobbing and gasping, he finally stopped and as soon as he yanked the tape off my legs i collapsed on the concrete shed floor. He didnt say a word he just unzipped his pants and emptied his bladder on me as i lay there. He pulled me up by my hair to my knees and if a man can be described as m*********** with anger, that is what he did, and sorrayed my face with his seed. Then let go of my hair and let me collapse back on the floor. He picked up my phone ended the video recording and sent it to his own phone. To orove to the other husbands he had handled me. Told me that he expected me to have handled my ex wife by the end of the week and to provide video proofand that the other husbands would see it. He swore to me that as soon as i proved i had handled her that things with the neighborhood husbands would resume. He said that dor now i would be the only d*** my idiot ez wife would be getting that he had definite purely lustful interest in her but he did not feel that he wouls be comfortable with having my ex wife relieve his son of his female virginity and it was not ideal but for now my mouth would have to be his son’s outlet as long as i did what was ezpected with her. I am not afraid to do what is expected but i do not have a solid means of presenting it to her and her agreeing. The only motivator i have is i know how badly my ex wife wants the man who took a belt to me to f*** her again. He wrecked her when he fucked her and she wants more of that. Otherwise it would be s***** to show her my bruised cheeks ans thighs, and my seriously swollen and black and blue testicles. Idk maybe if i let her see the video of what i took for us she would step up for her part in this. Now i am simply aching and feeling guilty because i am in part to blame letting my s** with ex wife and the blow jobs i give these men overlap.