Why am I unwanted? I try all the time to be a better person but I guess I’m not enough. I do chores all the time, I always have to watch my sister, always have to clean. But as soon as my mothers boyfriend or whoever tf he is does a chore I get bashed. And its so hard because I am trying. Anytime we disagree I’m wrong in every single situation. She want to follow my dream of becoming a fashion designer but I have no motivation. She just keeps pushing and pushing me and I can’t take it. I am expected to have a business and be a entrepreneur but that’s not what I want. At least for now, I just turned 15 and I am expected of so much. All of my family members around my age is so much greater than me and I feel like I don’t contribute anything. Anytime I’m quiet my mom says I’m ungrateful and she’s gonna kick me out and make live somewhere else just because I’m not energetic. I’m a very clumsy person and she got so mad at me she started yelling about whether or not I have mental issues and need to be on medicine. That stuck with me. Anytime I make a mistake she look at me in disgust and make sure I see her face. Sometimes she makes comments about my weight and yes I am over weight but I am not obese. But then when I try to starve myself she wanna feed me and seem like a good mom. She is f****** my life up and I cannot wait until I can get out of this hellhole. So if I’m not needed than why tf am I here I just wanna disappear and never turn back. Permanently.