Not sure if the Siren post was response to my post about living with mother and why I am doing so. I have actually in my admittedly limited s***** experience been strong/alpha in behavior, whether it be slinging around or devouring like a wolf. However I cannot dispute my mother’s take that I do lack the endowment to be fully alpha to a woman, my endowment is so small that penetration is simply not achievable, literally. Onxe the shock of confronting my reality was spoken out loud I knew it was truth because of my own experiences, not just because my mother said so. I am fully capable of alpha leadership and doninant behavior, without forcing mysaelf to be, but it does not change my anatomical reality. Once the logistical necessities were dealt with and I was moves back in with my mother, a truly solid lovely dynamic established itself. I am both loving and supportive as any husband can be and at the same time able to easily fulfill day to day man of the house goals and expectations, whether my own picture of those or hers with the obvious exception of intimate ones. I did ask her one day after moving in with her how shebhad known of my lack of endowment, and she admitted that the woman with whom I had my longest relationship with had confided to her that it was a problem and she needed to know how to tell me that it was a deal breaker for her. Hiwever my mother also told me that that conversation had been focused on me not being hurt or rejected and that my.mother had advised her that she understood and suggested that the relarionship end sooner rather than later since there was no changing my anatomy and so the problem would not go away but would only get worse with time. That discussion with my mother was not a negative one. Siren, My mother has acknowledged that regardless of my “challenge” down there that at some point in time any man needs some form of outlet and that she does not want me falling into a trap of retreating into a world of reclusive self gratification. She says we do not have that long term answer yet, but simply asks me to have the inner strength to resist that pitfall. We cuddle and watch TV and movies, we are active with our form of “dates” and are truly acting as a solid “normal” couple. While in a sane and clothed manner, we often share a commin bed without s***** tensions Siren.
