My boyfriend went soft one too many times while I was riding him and I can’t bring myself to do it any more. I used to love it. In fact, I could get off and it felt amazing. While I do think anxiety and being so tired all the time contributed greatly I’ve been tearing myself apart for it. I feel so gross and ugly. I start comparing myself to his skinny, pretty ex and I cant figure out why he’s with me. I doubt he ever had this issue with her. I don’t like being on my back where he can see me. I struggle to get wet. It hurts. I’ve considered just starving myself like I did when I was younger. I just want to be s*** and beautiful in his eyes and I feel like anything but.
