i am in love with my moms friends daughter. i am 15 and so is she. the last time i saw her was in august of 2020 so well over a year ago. and since then i have tried several times to reach out to her and try to spend more time with her but to no avail. i have gotten the excuse that it was because of covid but i have my vaccine and so does she. she hasnt made one single ounce of effort to try and reach out to me and even before covid every time we saw eachother it was because of me and because i planned it or our moms. its wierd because i had gotten so many signals from her thsat she liked me back but if she truly liked me wouldnt she try to see me? she has been on my mind non stop for years at this point but now im starting to belive that i havent once crossed hers. we dont go to the same school so there is probably some curly haired f*** boy who she likes instead of me even though i would give her anything. i was so convinced that she felt the same way as me. i am so deep in love with her. and im not just some stupid h**** teenager i have always been in love with her ever scince we were little kids when our moms introduced us. i am so love sick and i alwyas tend to have such a hard time letting go but its become clear to me that i dont even cross her mind when shes in mine every hour of every day. i want to let go and move on so bad but i cant i just cant i love her so much and i would give anything just to have her in my arms but im no longer convinced she wants me. im so in love that im stupid. i keep telling myself to give up because it will never work and she doesnt like me but untill i get that definitive no i just cant convince myself to give up. but one day i will get that no and that will be the day i end my life. the only thing keeping me alive right now is the slim slim slim chance that she likes me but when that chance fades i do to.