i can’t do this anymore. i have literally 4 friends at school and i love them to bits but i don’t see them often. i have this group that i want to be friends with but i was really weird in middle school and i’m still super awkward and that’s how they all know me i’m pretty sure they think i’m weird. yesterday i went to a dance where a lot of people from our school we’re there, and i was talking with one of my friends (who is sort of friends with the group i was talking about) and i said “yeah i’m pretty sure they all think i’m really weird” and she was like “yeah….idk” i don’t think she would’ve responded like that if they hadn’t said something about me so i probably am trying to be friends with people that don’t even like me. i don’t know how to talk to them but they’re all so cool and they seem so fun to hang out with i just wish i had become friends with them sooner because now everyone is judgmental and i feel so sad when i see people hanging out their friends because i barely have any.