I keep looking at your pictures, tell me why? How did i go back all of that once again? what is wrong with me? I think I might have attachment issues. Like you said, I might be suffocating people in the name of love. I might be a burden. I dont like be thought of that way. I just want to show my affection, but any obsessive person would say that, so i understand. I am not obsessive, but I care too much, way too much than what is expected of me. I hate it. I hate myself.
I really dont think i can do this. I thought I needed you, but i think i am better off without you, because I still haven’t found a way to love myself. I wish we both were in better places, I wish we met at another universe. I wish we cared for each other, in the right circumstances. I wish all of it was a lie. I wish you really lied to me. I wish we meet one day, and buy that farm haha. 3 days, just three, lets spend 3 days together, and decide what is best for us. I wish I believed in the same things as you did, I wish we liked similar things, I wish we were closer. I am struggling, I know its going to take time, but how many days? I hate being depressed. I am depressed right now. you were my cocaine, it almost feels like I was surviving because of you, which sounds terrible as how i feel right now without you.
Why am I even writing these things? I liked you, You liked me(or you said), you thought you couldn’t handle it, so you wanted the break and time off, and I agreed because I dont wanna stress you or put you through any pain because of me. I am miserable without you, I wish you were too in someway. I wonder if you even think about me, like I do of you.
It happened. It is what it is. I need to move on. and I will. Thank you for being a part of my life.

I want to cry.

Bye…