I am 19 years old and I am afraid to leave home, therefore getting a job is very difficult for me, my family of three and I are living in the United

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I am 19 years old and I am afraid to leave home, therefore getting a job is very difficult for me, my family of three and I are living in the United States as undocumented, I am not proud of anything but we had no other option, you know some of us just always go wrong and we have to try to do anything in order to survive, that is why we came to this country. Now you see, I try to find a job that I can do from home because, as I said, I am terrified to go out and being among many people, so I researched and found good jobs online, but since there is always something that ruins my plans, I realized that for all work you have to declare and pay taxes, and as I said I do not have papers in this country, my mother hired a lawyer to handle our case but that takes a long time and I want to help my mother with the cats and I feel miserable and powerless for not being able to go out and have a job like any normal person. I was I have been investigating and although there are many ways to solve my problems, I have no possibilities or opportunities taking into account my situation, the only thing I could do is get married but if I never leave home it is impossible to meet someone besides that I am not good at interacting, for now I just go to bed every night wishing that the next morning something or someone could save me but Every day is the same, nothing happens, I don’t know by what means or where to seek or ask for help, I don’t know what to do, I’m afraid to think that my little family could be my fault, I don’t know, I don’t want to think about it, I really love my mother and my little sister, I want to help them but in my conditions I cannot and every time I find a possible solution everything is immediately ruined, you know I want to do theI really love my mother and my little sister, I want to help them but in my conditions I cannot and every time I find a possible solution everything is immediately ruined, you know I want to do the good things, not doing something that later I may regret or something that leads me to a bad place, I mean trying not to do anything illegal so to speak, I’m not a bad person … I just didn’t have luck

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I came from a toxic family and my in laws were more like family than i imagined was possible. The weirdest part was how they knew my wife, their own daughter, was the outlier in their family, cold and manipulative. She married me to get away from them. I eventually learned our marriage was a lie. My FIL and MIL treated me and their two grandchildren with warmth love and respect. And they are the ones that taught me what family will do for the family. I loved the time with them when the kids and i would stay with them while my wife would go out shopping all day or go on work related trips. They were both very mentally and emotionally supportive recognizing what i went through to make sure the kids had a safe happy life despite their mother’s indifference, that they felt loved by me and their grandparents. My MIL and FIL would sit and talk for hours and we would all take turns watching and playing with the kids while the other two talked. One day my MIL pushed the conversation farther than usual and we ended up having a conversation that left me with silent tears when she told me she knew that her daughter was completely uninterested in being a wife or mother and that she as my MIL and my FIL worried that i would eventually seek affection elsewhere or simply leave and that would result in the kids being in a broken home. And that the two of them would never let that happen and that they had a solution if i was willing and devoted enough to hear them out. She called my FIL back in and suggested she watch the kids and we go for a drive. As he drove my FIL was quiet for a few miles then sort of blurted out that he hoped i knew how much he and his wife loved me and respected me as if i were their own. He ended up almost apologetic as he told me that he and my MIL had considered talking to me long before the wedding and warning me about their own daughter’s true nature. Then he told me that he wanted me to stop thinking that my wife would ever change, that they were pretty sure that i had deluded myself that maybe marriage or motherhood would make a difference but that it was never going to change her. I felt so awkward and defeated breaking down in front of him but he was very supportive and told me that they (he and my MIL) had a plan and wanted to make sure that the kids and i were happy despite their daughter. He asked me to simply trust them as if i was their own and that their devotion was to me and the kids. He even made me promise to listen to and trust them in the coming days, that everything was about the welfare of me and the kids. I guess he read my mind, because he looked at me strangely, then just kept his eyes fixed on the road and a rigid grip on the steering wheel and was angry, saying that he knew what i must be thinking, but that they had accepted that there was nothing anyone could do about their daughter, that they had put rhat behind them as parents and made the choice to save who they could.. I swore I would listen and trust.

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Once when I was little, my father held me down while my brother the undertaker cut my throat and wrists, they buried me alive. On Halloween night I dug myself out of my own grave and buried my brother alive, after I set my own father on fire. Thats where my love of fire, pain and suffering started.

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