I confessed last night and got a reply, but here I am again. Spouse is extremely manipulative and abusive, suffers from severe mental episodes, and so on. At this point, I would welcome/love divorce. I would even be fine with whatever custody I am given, just as long as I can see my children. Spouse is forcing me to make huge financial mistakes. But they have an “ace in the hole” that, while not illegal, would cause me to lose or severely tarnish everything that I’ve worked my entire life to get. The career, the house, my kids, everything could go out the wayside and there would be no way around it. My life has become a real life Gone Girl.