I’m starting to see no point in going on. Every day the same s***. Every day getting f****** nowhere. God I wish she’d just die a peaceful death and let me be free. I’m sick of her hateful b*******. She’s disgusting and warped. And I’m sick of waiting for you, dude. All I do is f****** wait. 15 years of waiting in this rotting f****** house in this rotting f****** city and you keep telling me to wait. You cry instead of doing something about it when I try to plan s***. I don’t want this life. I never wanted this life! You never f****** asked me and while we are at it, you never went to anything of mine that was important. I’m not your first priority or even your second. You made all the choices and decisions and I’m stuck with them. Of course I resent you for that. You would too.